xanga, it is time. we must part. i am so very sorry. i will keep up just to comment on others...but i shall no longer post....i gave in to gmail. i am sorry.


for my faithful readers, you may view my thoughts at http://rchellelynne.blogspot.com/
thank you.

So.
Story of my life.
What in the world.
It is...almost...5....AM. I'm awake.
Good grief.

Tried to go to bed.
Earlier.
And I couldn't fall asleep.
It was like, I was forgetting something.
So, I get up.
Realize that I needed to look at this website for a class.
So
I looked at it.
Took notes.
Went back to bed.
.
.
Still couldn't sleep.
So.
Remembered that I had laundry in the dryer.
Extremely HOT, wrinkled clothes.
So, I stuck them back in....to fluff.
Took them out.
Put them away.
This all at 3 in the morning.
.
.
.
.
Back to bed.
Nothing.
Zip.
Still awake.
.
.
.
So what do I do?




That's right.



I watched Scrubs.


Thank you very much...


Good night.

I have a prof who told me, this is the only time in your life that you can think of just yourself. This is the time for you to do what you want to do. This is the time for you to experience what you need to! This is your time to live and take that class because you want to or go to that place because you want to. You don't have kids to worry about or a husband to be concerned about or anything holding you back, so just do it!

I had coffee with Juliana and it was amazing. That girl is so special and I felt like I was talking to myself! We have a lot of the same passions and wants and loves. I was so encouraged by her and just felt the need to truly commit to some of the things I want to do. These are things I want to do for me! This is my time to be selfish and to do what I believe God has put in my heart and in my head! These are my dreams!

I want to travel. All over. I want to take a year and just go overseas, but not know where I'm going. Just take things with me and money and go places and experience the real things. Not the touristy things. The whole in the wall cafes. The art. The passion. The old things. The loved things. The places that people walked. The buildings that make you cry. Everything. I want to see it. I want to feel it. I want to know what it's like. I want to truly live it, smell it, breathe it. I want to see the Eiffel Tower. I want to drink coffee in Spain. I want to eat chocolate in Switzerland and Germany. I want to walk in the squares in Venice and take gondola rides. I want to walk where my Jesus walked. I want to see Stonehenge and wonder why it's there. There is so much to love! So much to experience! I want to truly live it. I would love to spend time there and fall in love with it. I want to be on my own and be responsible for me. I want to play music in random places and show people my passion. I want to truly touch someone's heart. I want to eat real Chinese food! I want to have a feeling of spontaneity and wonder what I'm doing next.....

There are a lot of "I wants" in that post...But I dream of this! It makes me want to cry (and most of ya'll know I'm not that emotional of a person). These are my passions and my dreams. I want to make such a difference but I need to have the life experience and to be changed myself! I need to get out of my tiny little bubble of a comfort zone and just do it!

Who's with me?